I understand your fears, I comprehend your anticipation. No one likes to go to the Doctor incase they find something wrong. Though didn’t you think if they had found something, they could have dealt with it? Who knows how long you suffered in silence. What symptoms you felt but kept them to yourself. Because that […]
Tired of broken promises. Tired of well wishes. Tired of being left behind. Tired of out of sight, out of mind. I am tired of being alone. Tired of giving my all. Tired of feeling the fall. Tired of making sacrifices. Tired of the unwanted surprises. I am tired of being alone. Tired of being […]
Most of the time, my mind is blank, vacant and dead. I can imagine just an expansion of dark nothing that spans across my forehead. I feel very little other than sorrow. I am in a deep mourn of something I have long forgotten I lost or even had to begin with. Excitement is lost […]
March 2022, a message popped up in the WhatsApp group for the people that live in my building, requesting this… “Hello’ totally random question … but does anyone know anyone who would want to adopt a cat? I’ve old and very loving and calm, it’s my sisters but she can’t have pets where she is […]
Perhaps I should stop listening to people. “Yes, you should move back to be nearer your family. Yes it will help your mental health”. “So what if you are being ripped away from the few actual friends that you have, that took you 35 years to find. So what if you are being ripped from […]
I am in the beginnings of being swallowed by the darkness. I am out of the denial phase and into the slow realization that it’s too late. My fingertips are crooked so bad that my bones are stiffened into a constant hooked state of just holding onto the edge of the back of the large […]
It could be the lack of furniture. It could be the cardboard box I am still using as a table as the table I bought has dodgy legs and I need to glue them in place. (Work in progress) It could be that since I have moved I haven’t made any attempt to reconnect with […]
I can count to a million in a matter of seconds, the clock on the wall is like a cartoon where the hands race around and around at warp speed, nothing is processing properly and I can’t focus or make a decision. Thing is, now it’s too late to do anything but carry on as […]
It’s been a while. No, I am not dead. Thank goodness I hear you scream…Maybe. Probably not. I know I don’t use this space as often as I should. I created it to let out my frustrations and tensions. And while I am not exempt from those I do seem to forget that this space […]
There are no shortcuts because there is no end— Kyuzo Mifune No matter what I do in life, whether it be at work, or at home, something as simple as transferring old numbers into a new phone. There are no shortcut for me. The phone company will say oh yes your numbers […]
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